* Had video interviewed for MIFA today.

i had video interview for MIFA competition today..
actually i was not nervous. because i know what should i talk about my design.
i can speak so well before my turn and after. i already memories it before my name called by the worker.

FINALLY~~!!
" siow see yin " (called by the person that working at MIFA)
gosh!!is my turn..i started to felt nervous. but what can i do?i can't escape.
i entered the room and started to talk about my design.

shit! i NG for the first time.
then the worker asked me wanna retake? i said ok. and she asked me to speak louder, so that can record it clearer.

second time....
i NG again! GOSH!
i stop for few second during my prsentation till half way, my brain was totally BLANK!
i cant even think of a single words on the notes that i wrote during preparation for this interview.
i laugh and keep on apologized to them and told them can i take one more time. (and this time the worker asked me to speak louder again)
the worker said, if im comfortable holding my paper and read it, just go ahead.
but i try to 'trust' myself, and retake without looking on the notes i wrote. (but at last, i still keep on looked through my notes and READ IT!) even i looked through my notes, but i dun dare to read the whole thing. so.............finally...............i didnt tell my main point. i totally mess up my point and i dont know what am i talking about.. plus, i didnt even tone up my voice. WHAT THE...!!!

i always try my best not to be too nervous. just treat it as chatting with new friends. but i really cant control my nervous when i am standing infront of the camera or recorder.

i was really regret that i didnt really present it perfectly. although i already try my best to do my presentation. but still....i don't feel it is perfect!